Karmic Synergy

Soo I’m officially a college graduate… Er, what is life? Yesterday instead of going to...

Sun, 16 Jun 2013 11:34:23 -0700

Soo I’m officially a college graduate… Er, what is life?

Yesterday instead of going to commencement I went to my favorite spot in Corvallis with my roommate. It takes a quick hike to get to the top of this huge hill that overlooks Corvallis and is overwhelmingly beautiful. It was like 50-shades-of-green meets heaven meets the most beautiful evidence of nature’s perfection. We sat on a bench for two hours which seemed like two minutes and I swear I would still be up there right now if I could help it. It was such a magnetic sight… I would look and stare and not realize time had passed and when it was time to leave I physically couldn’t pull myself away because it was just too stunning. The trees, the distant hills, the flowers, the blue sky, the silence, the memories of 4 years of my life, and you could see the stadium full of people a few miles away. It was like I was able to be part of the ceremony on my own terms… I could see it, but I was far and away in nature, in silence, surrounded by what I love most, celebrating life and graduation in my own little world. I had this song stuck in my head with the main lyrics “here’s to now” and it was like cheers-ing every moment that was unfolding everywhere I looked and I felt so present and peaceful and happy. A smile would come out of nowhere because all of a sudden it would hit me how absolutley fantastic this year has been and how, after 4 years, I finally made it to a place where I love myself and the life I created. It’s really hard to let go of that and prepare for a new adventure when the one I’ve just been having was so incredible but I’m going to try really hard to remember what it feels like to be on top of the world so that I can fuel my next journey with the thoughts of how great this one was. Words aren’t enough to explain what’s going on right now and it’s already proven to be more difficult than I anticipated to make this transition but I just feel so grateful for every detail and I know while there are great things behind, there are great things ahead. Here’s to now-

"Get scared. It will do you good. Smoke a bit, stare blankly at some ceilings, beat your head against..."

Fri, 14 Jun 2013 18:36:09 -0700

“Get scared. It will do you good. Smoke a bit, stare blankly at some ceilings, beat your head against some walls, refuse to see some people, paint and write. Get scared some more. Allow your little mind to do nothing but function. Stay inside, go out - I don’t care what you’ll do; but stay scared as hell. You will never be able to experience everything. So, please, do poetical justice to your soul and simply experience yourself.”

- Albert Camus, from Notebooks, 1951-1959 (via funpoolparty)

“I’m doing a lot of research on role strain, when an individual’s perception of...

Thu, 13 Jun 2013 10:30:31 -0700

“I’m doing a lot of research on role strain, when an individual’s perception of norms and values don’t align with society’s expectations, and it sucks because it can be really stressful. Yet, it is constantly confirmed that all social norms are arbitrarily constructed by societies, which is why they always change. Nothing is right or wrong, everything is too fluid for that. So aligning with yourself is much more important than trying to force alignment with society. I feel like an anti-human when I say that but it’s what I truly believe and have actually experienced successfully in a lot of ways since I was a kid.”

I just rediscovered this message I forgot I had written over a year ago and I gotta say, I’m pretty impressed…

"The planet does not need more successful people. The planet desperately needs more peacemakers,..."

Tue, 11 Jun 2013 10:52:00 -0700

“The planet does not need more successful people. The planet desperately needs more peacemakers, healers, restorers, storytellers and lovers of all kind.”

- Dalai Lama

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"And all becomes clear. Wish I could make you see this brightness. Don’t worry, all is well...."

Mon, 10 Jun 2013 16:41:00 -0700

“And all becomes clear. Wish I could make you see this brightness. Don’t worry, all is well. All is so perfectly, damnably well. I understand now, that boundaries between noise and sound are conventions. All boundaries are conventions, waiting to be transcended. One may transcend any convention, if only one can first conceive of doing so. Moments like this, I can feel your heart beating as clearly as I feel my own, and I know that separation is an illusion. My life extends far beyond the limitations of me.”

- Robert Frobisher, Cloud Atlas

"In a cosmos of billions of galaxies, in a galaxy of billions of stars, there’s a planet with..."

Mon, 10 Jun 2013 12:56:00 -0700

“In a cosmos of billions of galaxies, in a galaxy of billions of stars, there’s a planet with billions of people - The only one we know of - Every breath is a miracle. Our hearts pump. We see. We feel. We taste. We touch our world. And sometimes we forget the pure wonder of our brief journey on earth. My life is commited to making artwork that wakes people up to the miracle of life. The value of being human, and the transformative power of love. There are moments when we see behind the opaque curtain of life. When the infinite one shines through the skin of the beloved and we recognize the game we are in, the journey we are on, the powerful beings that we are, and the truth that is worth living for.”

- Alex Grey

"You’ve felt it, haven’t you? Those feelings that seem to get so big in your chest, like something is..."

Mon, 10 Jun 2013 09:38:43 -0700

“You’ve felt it, haven’t you? Those feelings that seem to get so big in your chest, like something is so beautiful it aches?”

- Heather Anastasiu, Glitch (via funpoolparty)

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Thu, 06 Jun 2013 19:31:27 -0700

Things: I just had my final class of college and I’m two tests away from being a graduate. I...

Thu, 06 Jun 2013 15:29:00 -0700

Things:

I just had my final class of college and I’m two tests away from being a graduate. I remember documenting my transition from engineering to sociology a year and a half ago and I can proudly say that for whatever reason I gravitated towards this field, it worked out perfectly. I was able to meet some incredible people who share many of the same beliefs, values, frustrations, etc. as I do; I was able to travel/study abroad in Ireland and gain some radical insight, work as a student rep to encourage other people to go after their dreams and not be afraid to explore their interests and abilities, and I was able to rediscover, or perhaps discover for the first time, what makes ME come alive. I am really proud of who I have become throughout the past few years, but I owe a lot to the classes that taught me so much about critical analysis of the world and to question everything before I internalize it as truth. To not be afraid to speak my mind and make change happen and not float by on autopilot. There is so much to life and yes there is shit in the world but there is so much beauty and so much to learn and experience and feel.

These words seem extremely inadequate for what I’m feeling right now but a goal I have is to start documenting more of these thoughts, just to have them out there. Just to get it out of my head a little bit and see what can be made of it. I just want to convey my gratitude for every single experience I have been fortunate enough to have in my life. The good, bad, and ugly all contribute to the progression and enrichment of one’s soul; I truly believe that.

I also decided to sponsor a girl in the Philippines today. I don’t have job security and I will be a recent college graduate “struggling financially” (though with a positive attitude!) but you know what? The small, small request of a monthly payment to support someone who may be lacking food, water, shelter, and who is likely being abused or has been previously… that small amount of money is changing a life in some way. That’s what I want to do; I want to change lives. I want to help, I want to love, and I want to remind the world about compassion. I don’t know how much of the money goes directly to the child and I damn well hope it’s not a scam because people deserve to be helped and I hate that money is so powerful but I have a good feeling about this and would love for it to drastically improve this girl’s life.

Appreciate your life, appreciate your family and your friends, and appreciate every experience that makes you feel something, anything, everything. Maybe that’s not the way to live, hell, I have no idea what I’m talking about, ever, but I’m excited to keep exploring and constructing my own ideas of what I want my life to be about.

leahpangea: truestrength525: Louis C.K. truth

Wed, 05 Jun 2013 12:21:24 -0700

leahpangea:

truestrength525:

Louis C.K.

truth

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Thu, 30 May 2013 16:56:33 -0700

New task for anyone interested: Ask yourself what’s stopping you from doing whatever it is you...

Thu, 30 May 2013 16:47:00 -0700

New task for anyone interested:

Ask yourself what’s stopping you from doing whatever it is you want to be doing. Ask yourself what really matters to you, and what you would do in the absence of your imagined limitations. Some are formal limitations (i.e. the almighty financial burden), yes, though many are mental and you can overcome them if you choose to. You can change the way you live. Save money, quit your job, sell everything you own. Do something worthwhile. Think about whatever it is that you really would love to do, would make you feel alive, would brighten your day, would scare you shitless…why the hell not do those things? Don’t prevent yourself from living an incredible life by staying stuck in a world that doesn’t align with your version of a life filled with love, satisfaction, and gratitude. Get out of the damn BOX.

We did this as an exercise in class today because sometimes professors are actually phenomenal human beings and it got me all excited about graduating and taking action on these ideas. Why the hell not!

Happy Thursday!

Thoughts for Graduates « College of Liberal Arts

Tue, 28 May 2013 22:47:05 -0700

Thoughts for Graduates « College of Liberal Arts:

If you’re graduating college any time soon, or if you just want to read something for the hell of it and try to relate anyway, this was my attempt at an advice blog from one almost-graduate to another!

Two weeks left and about 8 essays. Trying to enjoy every minute of it while mentally, emotionally, and physically preparing myself for a pretty damn drastic transition.

Oregon State has been absolutely lovely, though, I must say.

"It’s a terrible thing, I think, in life to wait until you’re ready. I have this feeling now that..."

Fri, 17 May 2013 22:50:05 -0700

“It’s a terrible thing, I think, in life to wait until you’re ready. I have this feeling now that actually no one is ever ready to do anything. There is almost no such thing as ready. There is only now. And you may as well do it now. Generally speaking, now is as good a time as any.”

- Hugh Laurie (via budddha)

tylerknott: Typewriter Series #415 by Tyler Knott Gregson

Thu, 16 May 2013 22:57:06 -0700

tylerknott:

Typewriter Series #415 by Tyler Knott Gregson